when i heard tsunami invaded Japan from my sis, i feel that the world very very soon will come to an end. judgement day. i feel sad, regret. im not a good servant of my God. i searched Him when i feel sad, alone, angry, dysfunctional, cussed up, in trouble. i forgot him when i worldly enjoy. like every other preoccupation-urban-hi tech-madness-human being, we are all so worldly in chasing happiness and satisfaction. the journey is a marathon and the medal is happiness, satisfaction. we are all in a marathon. i myself apart of the marathon. while im running along with other people, ive done many sins and wrongs whether under conscious, unconscious, or half conscious. i have enough made Him angry.
dear Allah SWT, fix me before the time has come. guide me in finding joy or happiness or whatever it is that gonna make me smile along the journey without being hurt, without hurting people, without Your disgraceful.
